Thoughts...

Rage
14th Jan, Saturday

Rage kills, almost literally! Please learn to control. It's freaky when u lose it. REALLY FREAKY! D: It's like some monster/demon took over. Like u were possessed! :'(
Everybody deserves a 2nd chance. But a 3rd, 4th, 10th, 100th??! Then maybe we all have to reconsider... Idk man. I really dk. Dun get why what we are trying to advice u aint going into that thick skull of yours. Dislike having to deal with such rows... Can u please try to comprehend, and look at things through OUR point of you? It's for your own good, why cant u understand? It pains the people around u, do u know that? We love u. We are not out to get u. We just want u to have some self control! Don't u think 7 days a week and 3hours+ per day is a LITTLE TOO MUCH!? :@ >< time and time again... :'( dont like seeing things like this. Please dont go astray. Please come back T.T

Imagination has gone wild! I dreamt about a beautiful scenery - a beacj i think - with somebody in it! The person's face was blur, i cant really make out whether it's a he or a she. But now that i'm awake i think i have a rough idea of who it was! :O anyway, it was a serene evening, my hair blowing in the wind... Then that figure turned to me, and was about to say something when..... MY ALARM RANG! >:O alamak wei. Sigh. I guess this is what late nights do to ya. Hallucinations and weird dreams with near strangers in them == awkward. Such a weird day...


Physics
15th Jan, Sunday

Once said to myself: if you think it, and u feel it, u write it down. So here goes...

Sometimes i think i really have had enough. Im getting impatient already. I need it, i need clarification and i need it now! I want to understand what it means now now NOW!!! >:@
I've had to deal with u for 4 years now, and i still dont get u. I barely survived the first 2 years when we just got to know each other. And now as i look back, i think 'i should have dumped u looooooong time ago!!'.
I dont fully understand u, until today. Idk how u function, seriously. What are your principles? What do u want commoners like me to understand about u? Tell me oh freaking piece of crap!
I dont know why must u be SOOOO complicated, SOOOOO hard to deal with. Why cant u accept the reasons i give u for the multiple behaviours u have? Why must y ve soooo complicated?
I should have listened to my mum. She warned me about u. I warned MYSELF about u! :( but i insisted, thinking i should get to know u all over again. i convinced myself that it would do me good. But NOOOOOOOOO! U are still as complicated as ever! U never accept the way i think. U NEVER cut me some slack! U tend to make simple day to day things seem so complicated for me.
I know u are very essential, as most, if not all people will say. I know u are such a big shot. Being the foundation of those infrastructures, roads, even the basics of the creation of the light bulb and the freaking car i drive!! ><
But to tell u the truth, im not interested in all your jibber jabber. I dont care how the Doppler effect affects the pitch of sounds i hear. I couldnt care less about how each material had different resistivity! I really dont care at all! >:(
Why wont u give me a break?! I dont want to have u. I just want to love u and be your friend! Is that too much to ask? :( Please be kind to me for the next few months. I promise i will dump u after that and u wont need to see me ever again! I can be sure of that.
I regret the days i had to deal with u, all those sleepless nights and all those brain juice used up just to understand u. I can forsee a splendid live ahead without u. I just cant wait for the day that i actually get to scream in your face and say that IT'S OVER BETWEEN US!!! D: I cant wait to bid farewell to u. Oh believe me, i wont shed a tear then! Troublesome fella, u are! I HATE U TO THE CORE!!! If i could just burn u to bits! Oh how i wish i could! I could have a barbecue by then! Ahhhh the rage i feel for u! >:@ THE HORROR!!!!
Idk how Einstein did it, but PHYSICS, u suck big time!! U make my heart sink :(
U hurt me time and time again. I cannot tolerate such treatment any longer! I dont deserve u! Neither do u deserve me! I cant bet there are many who are willing to take you under their wings and fly high and fly high above the sky with u! But SORRY im not that special someone! I seriously dread having to deal with u. This is my mistake and i have to deal with it. But PLEASE! HAVE MERCY ON ME POOR BRAIN! I am not your enemy T.T
Such a terrible thing u are, Physics! Horrible terrible vegetable! Sick tick lick rick pick bick!! ><
I am certain that i will drop u after my AS. No point continuing if i cant understand :(
#sad...