Her Story

2012-01-27T18:17:00.000+08:00

Have been discussing about my future with my parents lately. About what i want to do, where i want to do it... And to be honest i am quite scared. Uncertainty is my worse enemy. Being pulled at different angles. Left, right center. Time to put my feet down. Need to do some research, a more in-depth one, this time round.

BREAK ;D

2012-01-27T17:47:00.000+08:00

HAHAHAHAHA! Like FINALLY! I get some 'me' time ^^
Yes, exams are OVER for now :) hmmm i felt that i didn't really do great for all my unit 4 papers... :S i got a sorta bad feeling about it :( Maybe i'm not cut out for science afterall? O.o idk. I'm confused yet again!...

That aside. Hohoho i can finally get to enjoy the remaining days of my CNY! Although it's until Sunday ajer. But still! Many things can happen in 3 days ;) I seem to be not seeing much of my family these days. Tomorrow is family day! WOOT ^^ I finally got to watch Merlin season4! WAHAHAHAHAHA XD been missing out on it for sooooo many weeks! The story is getting more and more interesting man :D

Me neighbour has a new toy - a drumset. And oh my gosh! He starts playing everyday at about 12pm and it last for about 2 hours each time == GOOD LORD! :O i had a hard time studying when he started playing. Hope he will be more considerate. I wonder does he have a sound proof room... I doubt!

OH OH AND!! Guess what? IMA START GOING FOR GUITAR CLASSES~~~~
XD *laughs out loud + jumps up and down + whip my hair back and forth + scream!!!*
FUIYO! I've been wanting to learn for a long time but was held back. Now i shall go all out! XD Finally convinced my lovely mum that i WILL have the time if i make time ^^ DO NOT WORRY :D

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SHE

She is a life giver, homemaker, my best supporter, a great joker.
She can be the lamest and the most serious woman all at once - the one and only one that i've encountered thus far.

She can sting like a bee, but she can be loving and compassionate too.

She never fails to ring me up everyday, even though i'll be seeing her anyway!

She's my maid :P my Queen :O my partner in crime ;)

Last but not least, she is my best friend, FOR LIFE! :D

i <3 u momma!

He's so so sweet, up to the point where he has diabetes! XP
He's understanding, even as such an age!
He never fails to look at the bright side of things - something which i think most young people nowadays often fail to.
He makes me feel like my problems aren't really problems at all, but temporary road blocks :)
He's wise.
He's a joker too!
His laugh warms the hearts of those around him.
He's old, but never fails to understand any of my jokes! :P
He's a great counsellor.
I would definitely miss not having him around one day.... :(
I <3 u Kong.

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Beware of the people you open up to. Sometimes some of them are really literally out to get u.
Best to keep certain things to yourself + God + family members only...

The thing i love about pictures is that the moment doesnt change, and the memory of that moment lives on in the picture, although the people in it do change.
As i look back, i wonder how many new friendships i've gained, and also how many old ones that i've lost along the way. Wonder, does anybody think the same about me? :P as in, do people think i've changed too? Haha just a random thought :)
Change is inevitable. Li Chih once said "there are so billions of people in this world, there's bound to be one person who dislikes u" O.O it has been so many years and yet i still remember XD
Well that does make a little sense... But i think as long as i know what im doing is right and stick to my principles, i should be a-okay! ^^
After all, i've already known of someone who will always love me for who i was, who i am, and who i will become. That never ending and unconditional love, that only He can provide - the Almighty God.

Happy CNY people. And happy Friday! ^^

Thoughts...

2012-01-15T16:08:00.006+08:00

Rage
14th Jan, Saturday

Rage kills, almost literally! Please learn to control. It's freaky when u lose it. REALLY FREAKY! D: It's like some monster/demon took over. Like u were possessed! :'(
Everybody deserves a 2nd chance. But a 3rd, 4th, 10th, 100th??! Then maybe we all have to reconsider... Idk man. I really dk. Dun get why what we are trying to advice u aint going into that thick skull of yours. Dislike having to deal with such rows... Can u please try to comprehend, and look at things through OUR point of you? It's for your own good, why cant u understand? It pains the people around u, do u know that? We love u. We are not out to get u. We just want u to have some self control! Don't u think 7 days a week and 3hours+ per day is a LITTLE TOO MUCH!? :@ >< time and time again... :'( dont like seeing things like this. Please dont go astray. Please come back T.T

Imagination has gone wild! I dreamt about a beautiful scenery - a beacj i think - with somebody in it! The person's face was blur, i cant really make out whether it's a he or a she. But now that i'm awake i think i have a rough idea of who it was! :O anyway, it was a serene evening, my hair blowing in the wind... Then that figure turned to me, and was about to say something when..... MY ALARM RANG! >:O alamak wei. Sigh. I guess this is what late nights do to ya. Hallucinations and weird dreams with near strangers in them == awkward. Such a weird day...

Physics
15th Jan, Sunday

Once said to myself: if you think it, and u feel it, u write it down. So here goes...

Sometimes i think i really have had enough. Im getting impatient already. I need it, i need clarification and i need it now! I want to understand what it means now now NOW!!! >:@
I've had to deal with u for 4 years now, and i still dont get u. I barely survived the first 2 years when we just got to know each other. And now as i look back, i think 'i should have dumped u looooooong time ago!!'.
I dont fully understand u, until today. Idk how u function, seriously. What are your principles? What do u want commoners like me to understand about u? Tell me oh freaking piece of crap!
I dont know why must u be SOOOO complicated, SOOOOO hard to deal with. Why cant u accept the reasons i give u for the multiple behaviours u have? Why must y ve soooo complicated?
I should have listened to my mum. She warned me about u. I warned MYSELF about u! :( but i insisted, thinking i should get to know u all over again. i convinced myself that it would do me good. But NOOOOOOOOO! U are still as complicated as ever! U never accept the way i think. U NEVER cut me some slack! U tend to make simple day to day things seem so complicated for me.
I know u are very essential, as most, if not all people will say. I know u are such a big shot. Being the foundation of those infrastructures, roads, even the basics of the creation of the light bulb and the freaking car i drive!! ><
But to tell u the truth, im not interested in all your jibber jabber. I dont care how the Doppler effect affects the pitch of sounds i hear. I couldnt care less about how each material had different resistivity! I really dont care at all! >:(
Why wont u give me a break?! I dont want to have u. I just want to love u and be your friend! Is that too much to ask? :( Please be kind to me for the next few months. I promise i will dump u after that and u wont need to see me ever again! I can be sure of that.
I regret the days i had to deal with u, all those sleepless nights and all those brain juice used up just to understand u. I can forsee a splendid live ahead without u. I just cant wait for the day that i actually get to scream in your face and say that IT'S OVER BETWEEN US!!! D: I cant wait to bid farewell to u. Oh believe me, i wont shed a tear then! Troublesome fella, u are! I HATE U TO THE CORE!!! If i could just burn u to bits! Oh how i wish i could! I could have a barbecue by then! Ahhhh the rage i feel for u! >:@ THE HORROR!!!!
Idk how Einstein did it, but PHYSICS, u suck big time!! U make my heart sink :(
U hurt me time and time again. I cannot tolerate such treatment any longer! I dont deserve u! Neither do u deserve me! I cant bet there are many who are willing to take you under their wings and fly high and fly high above the sky with u! But SORRY im not that special someone! I seriously dread having to deal with u. This is my mistake and i have to deal with it. But PLEASE! HAVE MERCY ON ME POOR BRAIN! I am not your enemy T.T
Such a terrible thing u are, Physics! Horrible terrible vegetable! Sick tick lick rick pick bick!! ><
I am certain that i will drop u after my AS. No point continuing if i cant understand :(
#sad...

2012-01-13T22:09:00.000+08:00

FUAH! :O

Ojs and Thc came together-gether to collect Kh's pencil box @ around 930pm!

Ooooo-la-la~ ^^

I've indirectly created yet another opportunity for them!

Too much of something is not good!

I should not catalyse this rxn so much.

They should follow their flow, not the flow that i accidentally set ==

But still! NOT BAD! :D *pats myself on the back*

TEEHEE ^^v

a - break - before - it - continues :)

2012-01-13T20:51:00.003+08:00

So far all is well :)

Praise the Lord. Through Him all things are possible!

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Bio3 and Phy1 were kinda tough :(
- Bio3 - many said it was tough! Never seen such Qs in pass years at all.
- Phy1 - it's a retake. Qs were not like those in pass years.
Ed-excel finally decides to ask Qs that are out of the box. But my brain can't take it sometimes. I'm not versatile enough, yet :S

5 down, 8 more to go :)
I feel much more prepared now compared to the last time. At least i feel more confident facing the Qs. Thank God. Hope my preparations will pay off...

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Realised i took KH's pencil case by accident!! XD HAHAHAHA! Last night he was dreading that it got loss! I realised i had it this morning. I went to popo house from noon onwards till around 8pm, left hp at home - charging.

Came home - 15 missed calls from Jack, OJS, KH! 1 text message from KH saying he's coming my house to get it now! :O AHHHH! So i called him. He said he went to the wrong house - neighbour's house and asked for 'Christine Anne'. They said "we are Soh, here no Christine Anne." HAHAHAHA!! XD must say Tan mah == alor alor... So his stuff is still here. Sorry! >< return it to you soon. But not tomorrow, not going for maths class :)

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Chin Wah seems to be, well idk how to put this, suffering, in Russia :(
Doesn't sound like the old senior i used to know.
God is the only reason he stayed on there. I wonder what that means :S
He said he regretted going Russia. May even truly regret taking Med :O I REALLY wonder why. He mentioned this to me before last year. I didn't know this ill feeling of his would last this long - 2 years! :O
This is his 2nd year. 4 more years to go.
He said the people there, not all of them but some, treat Msians like how we treat foreigners - foreign worker to be more specific :(
Hopefully he would persevere.
Asked me not to go Russia O.o Trust me after the initial research i've done and after what you've said, i don't think i will go there for a full med course.

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PS: i have been praying for a friend like you :) i hope you are surprised, because i am :)
God is so gracious. Thank You Lord :')

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Sleep to the voice of John Mayer almost every night :)

Daughter by John Mayer
Soothing~ But Steph n OJS said it's boring ==

Add oil; tambah minyak, jia you, gambateh....

GO GET 'EM! :P

hmmm so after exams - singk any one? XD

New Year 2012 ♡

2012-01-01T17:27:00.002+08:00

HAHAHAHA! I started off 2012 with a real good laugh!!!
Went to church at night. Christine passed the wedding invitation to Mummy.
Nic saw the wedding card :

Kenneth and Christine - same name as me n kor! Nic didnt know it was a wedding card. So he said "Yeerr, WHY DONT HAVE MY NAME?? :("
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!! Laugh die me man!! LAUGH DIE MEEEE!!! XD
It's a wedding card my dear! XD

Had a lot to think about yesterday. My concepts were challenged. Guess it's time to reanalyse things... Went for lunch with Ji En @ dpc. OJS, THC, KH and Steph cant come. So disappointed :'( hahahaha! Since last year i had lots of comments about the thingy at the back of my knee, but never before have i heard such hilarious ones!! Self mutilation :O HAHAHAHA laugh die me! Never bath properly O.o NO WAY! Make up?? *faints....* XD Amy suggested war scar! XP Those are stretched marks. YESH, i've put on some weight :DD

Hmmm... My resolutions are set! Hehe looking forward to a better and more fruitful year :)

i wonder who do i look like...

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The other abang not around :(

Hmmm i realised that the people around me need me more than i think they do. They need me. They need my listening ear, my shoulder to lean on, my words of comfort - my presence! I'm serious. I realised i would go all out for a person, especially when it comes to my loved ones. I'll do anything for them, as long as i'm capable of providing. It soon dawned on me that my friends would be heading north south east ans west to further their studies. Time and time again i'm reminded that people come and go, they are never always by your side physically. But i believe that my loved ones are always there for me emotionally, mentally, spiritually...

To my family: May the good Lord strengthen our relationship and love for each other. May we continue to nurture each other, seek out the good within each other. May we continue to be the pillars of support for those who need it. May we never grow old regretting the times we didn't said 'I love you' when we should have.

To my friends: May we always be there for each other, through thick and thin. May we be a good listener, counsellor, friend, punching bag to each other. May we never forsake friendship for worldly things in the near future. May we always keep our promises and never give up on each other, no matter how terrible the odds are.

May we have a fruitful, wonderful, amazing year ahead! May God shower abundant blessing on you and your families :)

Happy New Year :D

BUSY :/

2011-12-29T21:58:00.003+08:00

I have so much so much so much to blog about! About Christmas Eve, Christmas, and those days after that... But unfortunately i do not have the time! HAHAHAHA! XD exams are on the 9th of Jan! If dont study now and when results are out and i didnt get the results i want, T-H-E-N, REALLY PADAN MUKA AKU!! ><

So now +U +U first!

Recent sleeping and eating patterns are TOTALLY hay wired! Wake up at 11am almost everyday == ALAMAK OOI! And i tend to study till very late at night. 2/3am! :( was advised to sleep early and wake up early. Um, will try >< will REALLY try.

AAAAAAHHHHHHH! I can feel the tension. The stress... As im typing, i actually have a headache too :S
Can on9 to check my mail and dl notes from Hun Shen ONLY. (I gotta keep telling myself why i on9 and how long i should spend here so that i wont lose track of time... ==)

SOOOO! I shall cao now. Having dinner @ 9pm == this is MADNESS! Ahah... :S

Previous days were awesome.

24th - Wendy went church. Met long lost friend Chris Andrews. He left the church :/ wonder why :( Kevin was around too. Gathering soon after CNY with Sunday school peeps.
25th - Spend the day chatting and studied a bit ajer. But did had wonderful dinner with g.parents :D
26th - Met Sue! 1st time in so many gatherings, adults were at 1 table, we 'kiddies' were at another. It was great! Had more things to talk about compared to usual. At the table were bros, Amelia, Rob + gf, Sue and her parents. Since we belong in the 'same generation', although our age were very much different XD
27th - Studied. But not as much as i wanted to.
28th - Had lunch with friends, both new and old! Hahaha many things happened today. I'd say, a movie will be coming along. Steph's novel would come out perfectly well! :D but, ended up sleeping after coming back home =_____=

NOW! SIGN OUT!
Wish me all the best. And i hope i can persevere! >_<
GAMBATEH!!!
*pray for me please ;3 and also for all those who will be sitting for examinations*

Christmas attire. cant see the bottom half though.

tired look! slept at 2/3am

TOODLES~!

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Dislike people pms-ing.

So freaking annoying!

It's not only YOU that's tired okay.

EVERYBODY IS!

SO PLEASE STOP RAISING YOUR VOICE!!! ><

SO ANNOYING! :@

CHRIST-mas EVE :D

2011-12-24T01:58:00.005+08:00

I feel a lot better tonight! AND I THINK I KNOW WHY!
It's this video > A Social Network Christmas :DD
It reminded me of what tomorrow is all about.
How and WHY Jesus came into this world! :DD
I am really delighted! Really, really, truely! ;)

And i sense it is less stuffier now, where im at. THE AIR HAS BEEN CLEARED! :D woosh!
I can spend the last few days of the year with a SMILE :D hahahaha and to think i was so scared! It's all just a matter of having effective communication skills! ;)

Hmmmm this year has been a real 180 degrees turn! College, new environment, made LOTS OF new friends, a new sense of liberation! :) Suffered some loss, but i gained some too ^^ Bumpy ride, but amazing indeed! Next year, i wonder what's installed :P As the year progresses, it definitely gets tougher. I think im ready. I would love to usher the new year with a new mind set and hope! Yeah! Im determined to widen my circle of friends, and also to get to know many other people from different walks of life! BUAHAHAHA!

Later, will be going to Bethany Chapel :D then Ai's house then JCC with Wendy. Had an outburst today! I was super duper frustrated and was kinda angry too! O_o But now im OKAY :D then again, it's because of THAT VIDEO. My mood became better, and just in time for Christmas :) OH YEA, im in a jolly good mood ;) :P :D

Oh and shopping today wasnt very fruitful. Didnt manage to get anything at Parkson. Went there because i thought of just dropping by, get some presents and cao. BUT there was seriously nothing much there! T.T OH but there WERE many transexuals there! O_o there was a lady. WOW super sexy. Until she spoke! Then i know that SHE is a HE :S yikes!!

But out of all these cons, HEHEHE! I did bought a new pouch! (is it called a pouch? idk :P) OH YESH! :D it's cute and sleek! White in colour with brown rims :DDD And guess what, it cost RM25 only! :DD Fell in love with it at first sight. Teehee...

Ok signing off :) Happy Christmas Eve. And a Blessed Christmas in advance.
*realise my blog has more words that pictures... Oh well, im too lazy to upload any :P

2011-12-23T00:36:00.002+08:00

Surprisingly my instinct was wrong. Thank goodness i realised quick enough. The magic's gone now. Hahahaha! This is the winner of 'The Greatest Joke of the Year 2011' award. What a way to end the year. Seriously with a bang! :S and no wonder things doesn't make sense. The line was quite unstable. No wonder i don't understand what was being said. LOL. Well i guess going with the flow has brought me to this :D not bad. I can do with such news for now :) Better late than never XD HAHAHAHA~

Looking forward to shopping tmr ;)

CHRIST-mas is COMING ♕

2011-12-22T20:48:00.009+08:00

All i want for Christmas are the gifts of the Holy Spirit...
Wisdom, understanding, awe and wonder, love....
The tree is not even up in my house.
There isnt any presents even.
Everybody's busy...
Wonder are we all prepared to the coming of our Lord, or not... :X

I feel a little, weird, with you coming over. NO OFFENCE but, it's been so long and we rarely talk even. And suddenly, pop, come to my house. I dont mind. REALLY i dont. Just that, im thinking where are you gonna sleep. With my books all messed up in my room... UGH @@ im sorry, you are always welcomed! But maybe this is the first time. Well there's a first time for everything, right? Hmmm you shall be my first then :D
WELCOME MY FRIEND ♥!!

Busy weekend coming up.
- Friday - shopping + meet up with Steph, KH, HC for dinner at kb
- Saturday - Bethany Chapel + Ai's house + Church + Sleep over
- Sunday - lunch and dinner with g.parents
- Monday - lunch with dad side
BUSY~ :O
I wonder would i have enough time...

But this year, AMAZINGLY i will be celebrating Christmas together with my college friends & high school friends at Bethany Chapel!! HOW COOL IS THAT! I wish there'll be many more of such Christmas to come. Eileen ajak KH, OJS, HC even Min Yi all to come. Hope they will be there ^^

Today, my breakfast became my lunch; and my lunch shall soon become my dinner... Woke up around 1030, almost 11, then i slept back again. Pimple near my eye brow!! :O sooo not good! Hmmmm...

GAMBATEH!

Strengthen Me...

2011-12-22T01:31:00.004+08:00

I have a sweet tooth!! :B nom nom nom!! Had quite a lot of sweets from Uncle Donald XD

Ada kala... Sometimes i wished i wasnt that reckless last time. HAHAHAHA oh well. Maybe i am what i am today because of all that! :DDD

I feel so gay today! But suddenly somebody splashed cold freezing water right in my face!! >< potong stim! P-O-T-O-N-G-S-T-I-M! :(
I wana push boundaries. Push the envelope. Push everything! The more you restrict me, in a way, the more i wana do it! ><

Had an awesome conversation with Steph and Khai Hoong tonight.
Somehow, i dont think it's really my hormones... Macam yes, macam no. I don't know. I don't care? Um, i don't care for now. I don't wana care! But a voice calls out and says 'Care~ care~ care~' =___________________=
I don't understand, how this could come about. I really don't understand.
Okay. No more thinking. NO MORE!
Smile :D S-M-I-L-E!! :DDDDDDDDDD

Bio, have been doing bio pass year. And i SUCK! >< wrong wrong wrong!
I should not be here now T.T ugh!

Lord I give You my Heart
This is my desire, to honour You
Lord with all my heart, I worship You
All I have within me, I give You praise
All that I adore, is in You

Lord I give you my heart
I give You my soul
I live for You alone
Every breath that I take
Every moment I'm awake
Lord have Your way in me...

Is it the devil's doing? Or is it You Lord? Give me a sign. I feel so far away from You.
If it was a sign from You, then why do i doubt?
I am afraid of falling. I am ashamed Lord, for time and time again i feel that i've lost Your Grace.
What am i to do.

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Ke said, 'HUSH! That thought comes from the devil!!!! How can u feel unworthy when u ARE the temple of GOD!!'
:') YES i am! What am i to fear!
I shall keep watch in prayer, also be patient, because it happens in His time.
Strengthen me, for i am weak, and thou art and Saviour...

Trust the Lord whole heartedly... ♡

sign off at 245am

What a Rojak day! :O :/ :D :P

2011-12-20T17:49:00.008+08:00

I'll say, what you see is what you get. Any questions? No? Good :)

Yao came yesterday to get some of my physics notes and stuff. He sapu all my notes back home. I hope my darlings will survive in his house. "Your babies will survive lah ==" was what he replied me. Well, shall take his word for it...

Was walking from kitchen to living room. I knocked over a chair while walking pass it! And here comes the conversation after that, he said...

: aiyo！酱粗鲁，以后怎样嫁给人。。。(shakes head)
: cheh! 有讲女子一定要嫁的meh。我不介意单独一个人活下去。(smiles :D)
: 惨咯。。。如果世界上全部女生都像你酱想，酱男子不用娶老婆了咯。你不要嫁，酱你妈妈没有的抱孙子咯！
: 我还有两个brother吗，怕什么。他们会醒目的啦。(grins)
: 很不负责任哦。
: 哇！有讲女子一定要生孩子得吗?? == (he's crazy!)
: 我讲罢了。。。 == (pause) Eh酱你以后很可怜哦，没人爱。。。
: (WHAT!) 有啊，一定会有的 :)
: 有啊。。。谁?讲来听看。
: 我弟弟咯。。。(thinks for a while) 还有我妈妈，爸爸，哥哥，公公，婆婆，阿姨，表妹。。。
: (interupts me) 还有呢? (with a smirk on his face)
: == 还有啊，上主啦！！神啦！(smiles brightly at him)
: (speechless look) 噢噢，okay...

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Zzzzz.... I can imagine myself growing old alone. Well, doesnt anybody? LOL. When i grow old, i could consider being a spinster. I'd look after my brothers' kids! :D set up a day care centre!!

And if Ai, Ke, Wendy, Lim, Hung or even Yao isnt married too! HOHO! I could travel around the world with them!!! :D NOT BAD WHAT!! :D ^^v
Um, on second thought, i think Wendy and Yao would 99% wont be on the 'bachelor' or 'bachelorette' list by the time we reach the age of 35. LOL ==
But still, im super optimistic! Who knows, i might even get a calling to be a nun! :D Teeheee!

Parents would say "by the time you graduate from Med school, you'd be very old, dont wana get married ah?" @@ Yea right. By then i'd just get Tom, Dick and Harry and say to them "Would you marry me? My parents want grandchildren" == What kind of thinking is that! I do hope they are joking. They always crack such jokes with me :/ :) :P

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Sue's heading off to Aus!! T.T SO FAST! So fast so fast so fast! Gonna do her degree already...
Her mama knows about Marc, by accident O.O She seen Sue's inbox. And surprisingly they are cool with it! :D
I'm genuinely happy for you! Although you DO have to consider a lot of things, since it'll be a long distance relationship. Am proud of you girl! :')
If you are seeing this, just a word of advice, please pray for divine guidance!
Ps, i still find the recent story about Marc HARD TO BELIEVE and TOO GOOD TO BE TRUE! ><
Call me your crazy over protective aunt, i dont care. SOMEBODY has to help you kick his dumb a*s if anything bad happens! I still dont fully trust him with you :/
Too bad Christmas outing if off. If not i'd be able to meet em in person...

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Wendy might wana have a slept over at my place. She wants to attend Christmas Eve Mass. But.... :/

OH i have not gotten any presents for my loves and for the gang!! >< not to mention my own shopping BAH D:
Hmm guess i'll sacrifice shopping time this year. But presents for the family and gang cant be neglected! Aiks... But, how? :/

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I find it hard to say no to people ~~most of the time~~ sometimes... =X
Eg: cantering on the 7th of Jan - i said okay... And even Christine's wedding projection on the 21st Jan! - i kinda sorta turned her down :(
Alamak... Mum says i gotta learn how to say no. Practise saying it in front of the mirror == so lame lah!
But sometimes it's really hard to say no! I WANT to do it, but i scared i cant commit.... But i end up doing it anyway.
What is this Christine? WHAT IS THIS?! :O
I have commitment issues =X

Anyways, off to mah room!
Today has been a weird + nerve wrecking + lovely + cold day.
I'm dripping like a leaky faucet! @@

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Just a small shout out: Thank you Sue, Khai Hoong and Steph for your time ^^

加油！

2011-12-20T13:40:00.000+08:00

Quote of the day :

Confidence is what makes a person shine :)

I think i have a crushed nut. MUAHAHAHA! *giggles*
But i bet it's nothing. Just some hormonal imbalance of late...

Oh and im sick :( darn flu.Thank God no fever.

I hugged my mummy this morning. Feel loved! ^^

WAO A CALL FROM SPORE!!

2011-12-16T21:53:00.002+08:00

NAVEEN JUST CALLED ME ALL THE WAY FROM SPORE TO LECTURE ME!!!!! @@
WAO HE IS SERIOUS!!! ><
WAAAAALAOOOOOOEHHHHHH~!!
"I should not be seeing you on fb now..." was what he said!
Mum said "where can u get this kind of friend!" T^T

That's it. I mean business now.

GAME ON!!! ><

2011-12-16T21:36:00.000+08:00

YOU DARN FIRGGIN A-LEVELS!
YOU ARE WORSE THAN SPM!
SO MUCH THINGS TO DO!
SO LITTLE TIME!!
T^T

Naveen Lectured Me D: AHHHHHH!!!!

2011-12-16T21:22:00.001+08:00

NAVEEN LECTURED ME!! @@

Oh no oh no oh no...
He took 6 subjects for his S'pore Alevels.
I only have 4. So why cant i do it!!!
Gosh he has got me worked up.
Keep saying he wants to see me as his junior...

AAAAAHHHHH!!!!
STRESSED UP LAH NAVEEN!!!!

He said i should suffer now if i have to, cuz it'll pay off in the end... :O
He's speaking from experience.
Alamak, ya Tuhan!

Dear Lord, what should i do?
What need be done?

I asked "so i should study everyday?"
He shot me down by saying, "What kind of question is THAT? OF COURSE!"
WAAAAAAAAAA~~~ @@
I would be like a dead fish any time soon T^T

I will go study after doing Church roster.
Bye blog, u will be abandoned for some time.

I am officially a HERMIT from today onwards.... :(
GOOD BYE WORLD~

2011-12-16T13:00:00.001+08:00

Reading my pass post, i realised, hey, i've grown a lot. WEEEE~!
No more foul languages since long time ago! =)
Am proud of myself ^^v
This is my plot of land in cyber space and i love it XD

Yesterday was unproductive. SO unproductive.
Talked with people till lost track of time, from evening till mid night! @@

I've noticed, ever since form 3 i've always said boys are predictable,
And they still are! == one way or another :)

I wonder, is there such a thing as admiration at first sight? Cuz i felt that recently ^^
Am fascinated and amazed by a certain someone.
Feels like I've know em for a long time.
So easy to talk to about everything under the sky!
Mature in thinking compared to most people i know.
Can really sense the difference.

Oh OH! OJS and HC are getting serious! WAKAKAKAKAKAKA!!! XDDD
Later she's coming in HIS car to pass me a book. WOOOOOW!
Last night Steph and I... HAHA!
We were talking about weddings bells, being emcees at their wedding, and also witnessing history in the making. WOW!
I am glad that they like one another. They seem like the perfect match!

BUT FOR NOW! It's study time ==
Ima super lazy bum D:

Christina Perri - A Thousand Years (Official Music Video)

2011-12-16T12:44:00.000+08:00

I love this song... =)

Nicky-Nok Bday!!

2011-12-16T12:41:00.000+08:00

WOI! It's Nicky-Nok's bday! WEEE :D

Hair pee 13th bird day lah.

Please don't grow up too fast.

We, often do crazy things together. HEHE. Am glad to have you as a bra-tha! X)

JIA YOU in studies. DON'T GROW UP TOO FAST! =')

Stem Life & a new found friend :)

2011-12-14T20:49:00.001+08:00

Went Stem Life today. Walking distance away from KLCC.
Delta and 1103 were late. LOL. Kiko kept calling me. Siew Tsien also. AAARGH! Havoc!
Me, HC, Steph went kfc. Then we waited for Lili and OJS all to come. They were super slow man!
Alas they arrived. We were sort of late anyway.
Kiko said we are so 'early' == Yuen Xin said 'who said dun be late ah...' Aiyo. So sorry >< not my fault D:

But ANYWAY! Kiko brought a friend. Her Chung Hwa friend i guess. Which (surprisingly) also happens to be OJS' primary school friend. LOL. Lee Ji En is his name. HAHA!

So we walked to Stem Life. We went to the wrong floor, to the marketing floor! LOL
Were suppose to go to the 7th floor. Steph said 'in toilet i was told to go to the 7th floor' XD macam toilet talked to her.

We were split to 2 groups since there were 26 of us. 1st group went to the tour 1st. I was in the 2nd group. We watched videos regarding how Stem cells saved few lives...
OH the process of how the umbilical cord blood is collected is seriously... =X
Vagina was censored... Umbilical cord was, thick and blue @@ giving birth is a DIRTY process. Shit would all come out as well! >< AHHHH at that point of time i felt my mum was the BEST person in the world =')

I wondered, how do they know which place of the placenta to poke to obtain the blood. It shows in the diagram 'umbilical vein' but idk how they determine. Later on i was told by the lady Ern Hui (same name as Eunice!! =D) that the vein actually twines around the umbilical cord. Plus it doesnt matter which blood as long at the stem cell is collected... WAO! =D

I said 'this is cool' he said 'so are u inspired?' YEA i am X)
He asked super a lot. Waowee! He's not a MCKL fella. We just pretended he was. LOL...

His story is kinda cool.
He's a M'sian. Studied in S'pore since form2 and never looked back since. He is not a S'pore PR though. I asked if he were to ever come back and work in M'sia, may not be able to right since he took o-level instead of SPM. He said will consider taking SPM Bm =O WAO!
He said wana study, dk apa apa, in France! But need to get scholarship... HAHA.
He stay in Kepong too! WAO SMALL WORLD! At tbm haha.

So awesome, i have yet another S'pore friend besides Naveen!!! =D

Both have inspired me this week :)

- Naveen got into IMU for Med course. He asked me 'Christine are u ready to be my junior'. I was like, so shy. I said depends on my result, i dun dare to say anything now. He said 'U BETTER DO WELL IN YOUR A-LEVELS'. =O WAO! I am immediately motivated! I said, update me on the place and lectures :) This makes me realise that hey, dreams CAN come true. Just a bit more effort and time, it may just PAY OFF!! :D

- Ji En plans on studying in Europe, but needs a scholarship. He said whenever i need help with S'pore unis i can contact him!!! :D WAO! WHAT A DAY! I have new found friends, with education references, and who are willing to help! THANK YOU LORD!

Oh and he terus added me on fb man! So fast. I said i din intro myself. He said i din have too, i had my name tag on. LOL!! HAHA i lupa pulak. There are friendly Singaporeans out there! Or at least, there ARE people who live in S'pore and yet they are not snobbish, am willing to help sumore!

This shows, there's a WHOLE NEW WORLD i've yet to explore. Many more things to see and learn :)

Such a wonderful day today. Oh and i reached my study target today! ^^

YEA i feel my SPM motivation coming back! :)

JCC Idol results

2011-12-14T20:25:00.003+08:00

I got consolation :)

Lim, ai, ke came to see me.

Kononnya Norman said he saw Ke and Lim waving vigourously at the back XD

Am glad they came to give me support :)

Lun cant go out. Hung and Yao did wish me via sms.

Yao said belanja me makan if i win, if not i still have to belanja for the previous bet.

So i said i didnt get top 3.

He said will belanja me anyway XD

WEEEE~ i am just lucky to have such great friends

Although i ffk them for yam cha the next night >< AIKS!

I brought them into the church compound to have a look.
Ai and Ke was obviously facinated =)
Am glad i gave them a chance to see the inside.
To get a taste of how it's like to walk down the isle X)

I thank God for courage, for a brave soul!

Although i did not win, but i had the courage to sing in front of such a HUGE crowd!

Even with Fr. Micthel, Raymond and Philip were there :)

Am glad! HAHA

Got called from Aunty Jenny and Christine Sun to join choir.

Hmmmmm i wish i could!

But media needs me almost every Saturday =X

Maybe it's time for a change in ministry.... :D

I THANK THEE... Amen ;D

NOT taking sides

2011-12-14T20:00:00.003+08:00

Please dont make me choose between the both of you. I don't want to take sides. Leave me out of this! == both also at fault lah. Ish.

To Anne: Why do you keep eyeing your hp? :@ CUT IT OUT! ish!

I realise, 'north pole' and 'south pole' is really very different. Everyone also like that. Including me D: so i cant complain. It's common. It's the norm, sadly ==

Self Obsession - Thinner =X

2011-12-13T17:42:00.000+08:00

I wish i was thinner.

Dk what made me ballooned right after SPM man.

Was it the sense of liberation?

LOL. I will never know.

Am struggling to accept my current image.

I DO sound like a self obsessed freak...

But come on, everybody does this one way or another.

Today it's my turn =O

Me is the fat.

Me dont want double chin! >o<

Time to work out. But who can teman??

Hmmm shall go find myself a work out partner.

USH ANNE!

CUT THE FATS!!

I wana be the BIGGEST LOSER KEPONG!! ><

wooot~!

2011-12-09T03:31:00.001+08:00

I gotta start loving myself all over again... <3

No Clue...

2011-12-09T00:44:00.000+08:00

I just tend to think too much =/ friggin darn it!
I sorta know how people feel when they are rejected. I would like to think i felt the same yesterday.
For today! Is a brand new day.
U know how people keep saying 'Be Strong' when they know NOTHING about your current situation == speechless.
Ignorance is bliss....

**********

Sunday, 630pm, JCC Idol finals. HAHA it's weird cuz the pianoist say i wasnt singing using my tummy but from my throat. No water then perhaps? But without the mic, okay wor! @.@
I gotta keep practising. Judges are from Music Academy of Taiwan, London... Wao it sounds like a great big deal.

**********

Exam month is coming. December is revision. I shall be a hermit and remain boring, for this month only!

Bye :D

Friendship vs Special Feel; High Praise; JCC Idol

2011-12-03T01:14:00.001+08:00

Lately realised classmates JS and HC both like each other... Oooooo~! XD
But she didnt want it now. Hmmm i wonder why...

Ehehehehe! Bila kawan baik jadi sedikit lebih daripada itu... SUSAH LOR!!! X)

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Joined JCC idol yesterday. At 1st only me and Norman. Later on Marcus and Lorna Lian came.
4 from English speaking group compared to the other 22 from Chinese speaking group... @@
WHAT'S WRONG WITH YOU YOUTHS!!! ><

While singing, my hands were shaking! :O
Aunty Lisa, Jenny were the judges among 5 of them. I got into the top 13 out of 26 XD
Performing again on the 11th Dec. Go by votes this time. Thursday gotta confirm song choice already.

I joined to prove to myself that i have a gift. And now i know what my gift is :)
Oooo wish Ai they all can come on that day!

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HIGH PRAISE in MCKL TODAY!

Amazingly Yao, Chau and TKK came. They were at the back, me and Hui Yi right in front.
Hmmmm Yao said "meaningful but boring..."
Well, i got nothing to say to that. All i can say is, I've tried :)

I feel the songs came in at the right moment. Testimonies were touching too T.T
What a great way to end the semester.
TIME TO STUDY~~ :D

JESUS LOVES ME YES I KNOW

FOR THE BIBLE TELLS ME SO :)

Appreciate your gifts MAN!

2011-11-23T00:40:00.001+08:00

If only people knew what they had.
I'd give anything to take their place...
I'd like to be able to play the piano at ease. Guitar too.
I wana be able to read notes like *SNAP*.
I wana have professional side reading!
Without any pause in between.
HAHAHAHA!

Some of the people i know, have high grades but seem to not touch the piano already.....
I'd do anything to have that kind of benefit/talent.
Self learning is just a bit too tough X(
I cant seem to get the timing of the notes right! D:

Then it got me thinking: maybe i was born to be serenaded, not to be the one who serenades!!
Hah! How ironic =/ =D

So many Heartbreakers~

2011-11-22T21:26:00.026+08:00

Feel saddened and helpless to watch the people around me going astray. Breaks my heart. I bet it breaks the Lord's heart too =(
Who's to blame? This Q can never be met with a suitable answer. In fact, it seems like it has no definite answer at all.
What do you do when u feel that praying alone is not enough to help them. What CAN u do? =(

Everything happens in His time. But i've heard people saying "When exactly IS His time? Don't tell me gotta wait for something serious to happen then only things can be changed??" ><

This same Q can be applied in every aspect. Politics, closed ones, friends who have been behaving badly =/

The by standers are HUNGRY for a change. Why does the person him/herself not see the need to change? Why does he/she give in to temptations and influences imposed by the world at large? Why do they not see the need to start changing from within??

It's at times like this that makes me wonder, should i take up psychology to study human behaviour? Hmmm..... I wonder if i am a graduated psychologist, will i be able to analyse what's wrong, 'fix' it and change the lives of those people, and through them, change the people around them too? O.o

I wonder should i venture into politics. This country needs a major gotong-royong. Why? Because people still litter!! They make this place so polluted that sooner or later no organisms would wana live here already. Even the plants will uproot and migrate to a place where they'll feel much secure and appreciated. (Note the irony? Plants dont migrate) ==

Seriously, do you want this kind of a life? Full of uncertainty. Full of suspicion between different species. DO YOU? ><

Hannah Yeoh came to my college today to give a talk about how youth can be a part of nation building. I am TRULY inspired. Through her, a living testimony, i know that God works through us, and that miracles can happen.
She said "God does use us, if only we let Him in."

I wonder what's my calling.
Is it really med? Or is it something else? O.o

Life is not worth living if it's only for yourself.

Have you tried to stop pushing through the crowd, and stepping back to take a better look at the bigger picture? If u do, u'll realise that there is no need to rush. Everything will happen in due time.

But if you dont fight for it, it wont come to u, right? Gosh i think i am wrong. I am totally contradicting myself ==

i am still alive for a reason. God remembered to wake me up every morning for a reason. God made me a Malaysian for a reason. It's my quest to find out what that reason is....
Dom said i can be the next Hannah Yeoh :) can i? She said "if u r afraid to be arrested, then u cannot take up this role'. She is a very brave woman.

Did u know that u can register to join a political party at the age of 17? U can be politically active at such a young age! :)

Enough of sitting at the sidelines and complaining. "do not complain without offering any suggestions" is what the YB said.

Am i inspired? YES :)

IELTS RESULT! =)

2011-11-21T22:05:00.001+08:00

I got a band 8 for IELTS! *unexpected... ^^

Listening - 9
Reading - 8
Writing - 7
Speaking - 7.5
Therefore over all band is 8 ^^v

Surprisingly my writing is the worse of all :O
Well i guess this is what happens when i do not write essay for a year, since SPM. LOL

Lately am so unmotivated T.T depressing
People say i am hardworking. HAH! Well that is what u SEE.
But AM I? HUH~! >< geram sendiri...

Addicted to K-pop and On9.
This is Stu man. really Stu, as what Eunice would call it. Haix.

Gotta buck up. Recent trails all Cs T.T

Will go after my dream. I wont let any of u LOOK DOWN ON ME!!! :@

GAMBATEH!!! >

My New Love for Korean Band!

2011-11-13T13:01:00.005+08:00

B1A4!! Beautiful target sounds AWESOME!! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oL9T4pksh6c

Aint he HOT! A smile that just melt souls.... <3

LIKE EM!! XD

http://ainsurayablackheart.blogspot.com/2011/04/b1a4-profile.html

From the link above, i found out this:

Real Name: Jung Jin Young (정진영)
Position: Vocals, Leader
Birthyear: 18 November 1991
Height: 178cm
Weight: 59kg
Skills: Song writing, singing, acting

HE IS SOOO YOUNG! Older than me by 2 years ajer!! LOVE! ^^

Am thinking of forming a BAND!! Guitar lessons here i come!!! <3 ^^

reference: http://181191.tumblr.com/

I am finally 18 :)

2011-11-07T12:12:00.000+08:00

I can always get what i want, but not what i need...
Cheers to me! Yea happy Sweet 18th birthday.
Cheer up yo ;)

Memories :')

2011-11-05T18:34:00.001+08:00

I realise how lucky i am to have wonderful friends who stick with me through thick and thin :)
it has been a tough yet enjoyable journey of 18 years. I am glad to say that i am still alive :D
I am gonna be 18 years old soon. Time flies! haha.
Dont know why, as i listen to Yao's playlist of Korean songs, although i dont know the meaning of the song, but somehow the rhythm make u reminisce the old days. At least for me la :)

I love music. Love love love music. Am determined to learn piano till my utmost!

I love you. You you and you! Who? Yes you friends, YOU :*

Happy birthday Ke and Ai, love you both <3

NO WAY!

2011-11-03T23:19:00.001+08:00

Results are getting much worse. Bio 55.5% in total, Chem 64% O.O this CANT GO ON!!
Im so so so lazy. I shall not on fb unnecessarily anymore. I gotta find back my SPM spirit. Where have you gone to?!!! @.@ im so unmotivated! I may lose my scholarship. Time to REALLY do something about it.

Won't blog as often as i would like already! I AM DETERMINED TO SET LIMITS!! >o<

P - Pray Worrying = Lack of faith

U - Until
S - Something
H - Happens

Gotta keep pushing!

sign off. xoxo~

♥ Musicians!

2011-11-02T21:20:00.000+08:00

TODAY! Hahaha. Students from the Central Philippine Adventist College came to MCKL to perform a String Quartet =D Had no idea what was it but was soon to find out.

From internet, definition of String Quartet is "generally, the music composed for the usual instrumentation reflects the four movement form of an orchestra: a fast movement followed bt a slow movement, a dance-like movement, and another fast movement."
This definition is SOO true =)

They were here to raise funds for the less fortunate in their community so that they can buy them free musical instruments and give them lessons for free! The head said that "we believe that music is not only for those who can afford an instrument.". Truly touching.

They were Christians. I think all of them are. They were dressed in suits, so formal that you would have thought it was a live orchestra playing at the agora. Some of them started from SCRATCH!! =O It was amazing watching them play, moving their hands, so into the flow of music that everyone kept silent while they were playing. There were 3 Malaysian students in it too. They are being home schooled. The boys from the Philippines came to M'sia 3 months ago to practise this. They will be heading to Singapore next. They collected quite a lot from the crowd in MCKL. 850? If i remember correctly. Ivan was the first to clap his hand with a smiling face! X)

The lady said we are a very good audience (maybe cuz we were always quick to give applause! Starting with me n Steph ^^)

There was one girl whose name was Stephanie. She sang with a soprano singer! She had a voice of an angel! As i watched her sing, i was utterly stunned, shocked, mesmerised! JAW DROPPING! She switched froma Nursing course to Music course and is currently picking up some musical instruments. We did take some pictures with her. She is very pretty and yet down to earth! When i told her she had a nice voice, first thing she said was "Thank God." ^^

There were 4 people who played the violin. The couple's son and daughter, and another 2 are Philipino boys.

One was Ivan, the other Darren, if im not mistaken. Ivan seems to be the more senior one of all. But he is small in size (maybe all of them are small in size) he is kinda thin too. He's only a 4th grader! As i watched him moving his fingers as though it had a life of its own! His body flowing and moving with the rhythm the music flow. WAO! One word to describe - AMAZING!

Darren on the other hand, was moving his body and stomping him feet with the rhythm. So amazing. He is also pursuing a Nursing Course but his passion is Music. WAO! They looked like they were having the time of thier lives! They were good looking too! Hehe ^^

There was one guy on the biola, and 2 more on the cello, one of it is the couple's another son.
The look they have when all of them played just made me MELT ~~ =3

The thought of some them starting from scratch makes me feel like doing the same! They could play as if they had been doing it since, FOREVER! But of course, i gotta be realistic. I'm doing A-levels now... Steph could consider at least. She might go for this right after A-levels. I wish i could too =/

I am definitely interested in it! They'll be having a Music Camp next year, 2012, in Selangor. *CLAPS HAND!!! ^^* Me and Steph agreed to go. But it's near May/June, our exam period... Hopefully we can make it la. They should contact us by email i guess. nice =D

After their performance we took pictures with them!! WOOT~~~ *CLAPS!!!* BUT pictures are in Ben Jie's hp =.= aiya he's so slow at uploading.

They really did made me melt~~~ I am really amazed. This makes me realise that, there are other parts of the Earth in which i do not know and have yet to explore.

Dear Lord, please bless these people who are doing Your work. Thank you for bringing them to MCKL and inspiring people like me. Thank you. Amen =)

=X

2011-10-27T02:17:00.001+08:00

Going jogging with just u alone is kinda weird. Especially if u wana drive all the way from OUG to Kepong just for that O.O although u are obviously just a friend. But sorry, it is creepy. My guard is up. My private space is being invaded. Sorry but it's complicated. It's not like we've been friends for super duper long. With Lim Chee, Lun or Yao then i dont mind. But this, is a bit too weird. Actually, i should NOT apologise. I did nothing wrong. HAHA! XD

Have been sleeping very late these pass few day. What's up with me? O.o

IELTS exam coming =O hope i can get a good band.

Went singk with College friends right after Trails Exam ended. On the 25th. Somehow, it wasnt as fun as the 1st time i went with Jack, Vine, Jun Shern, Steph, Ben Jie, Min Yi, Yi Kun. LOL. Kind of awkward for Vine and Hui Ching i suppose. Me too, a bit la. Min Yi, Hui Yi, Racheal, Jun Shern, Eileen, Jack, Khai Hoong, Ivan, Jing En, Kate, Hui Ching, Levine, Ben Jie... Not as high as i though it would be. Maybe all of us are just not very close yet. But i doubt we will be any closer. It has been 11 months now. If bonding were to happen it would have MONTHS ago. Zzzz...

I still prefer my gang of friends! Ai, Ke, Lim Chee, Pik.... These are REALLY my sing k kaki!! XD
Oh YEA BABY! LET'S TEAR THE HOUSE DOWN! ^^
Later go Singk with them @ Curve.

Yawn.... good night bloggie. You bloggie, is a real good place to scribble before bed time ;)

NIGHT! xoxoxo~

My New Guitar! ♡

2011-10-26T01:10:00.003+08:00

Hi hi bloggie!

Today i got a new guitar!

SOOO COOL RIGHT!!!

Early bday present from Ben Jie (that's what he wants to call it).

He has another one already so end up giving me his old one.

NOT BAD!

He said he bought it for a cheap price as this was his 1st guitar.

I got it from him for FREE~~ ^^v

BIG THANK YOU! X3

But ironically, I DO NOT KNOW HOW TO PLAY!

Oh well, it's never too late to learn ^^

Ben Jie + Jack + Tim + bros can be my teachers. YAY!

**********

I wana be a doctor AND a missionary!

JUST IMAGINE! How great is it to do what you love AND also preach The Word at the same time.

Shall do it if i have the calling :)

I will DEFINITELY take this into consideration.

There's a story behind this.

(Fr. Paul from India on Saturday... A guy's hand got chopped off cuz demanded his 6 months wages... Bleeding all over...)

PEACE OUT! =3

**********

Went and singk with college friends in RedBox at Low Yat.
Went and watch Real Steel!

Super duper awesome man!!! :D
*left, right, upper cut!*
Highly recommend all peeps to WATCH IT!! XD

2011-09-25T02:03:00.002+08:00

I AM STILL AWAKE AT 2AM! @.@
I DON'T NEED A GUY WITH ME!
I NEED SLEEP AND A BIBLE!
I NEED CONFESSION!
I NEED A HUG!! ><

STALKED !! =O

2011-09-24T23:11:00.000+08:00

Imma being stalked by my own relatives! LOL XD they thought i went Canada. Not me also.
There were 2 routes which the news spread...
1. According to Sue, someone saw it on fb, told Tua Gor, who told Sue's mum, who then kept asking Sue.
2. From Tua Gor, somehow Tua Um knew, called up my dad =S
Dad said my bf went. Which made my shrug at the thought of it. She sounded pissed. If she was, she tired hard not to show.

I dont mind relatives knowing things about me. But i DO mind when they tend to know things when i didnt tell them. And in this case, jumble up facts.

Oh gwad... Please give me strength through trails like these...

2nd visit to Agathian Shelter

2011-09-16T23:59:00.001+08:00

This morning, i was woken up by the sound of my house door bell. The contractor came already, to fix my room tiles. Immediately woke up, realise - 8:15am already O.O mass starts at 9am. Quickly went and bath, and drank milk and ate biscuit while bro get ready too.

Reached church, got curry puff and buns, ate before we went. OH! And, then Greg said we are going to Agathian Shelter! WOOT!~ face light up immediately! =D because i've been there before!! XD when i was in Form4. Excited!

Sat bus, reached there, i saw the same boys i've seen 2 years ago.... Pubalan remembers me!! =D this was him and i 2 years ago =)

Once i got there, immediately started playing the Fire, Defend, Attack game. i learnt it from Zi Han and Joel last time so i know =) knew a few guys names like Dinesh, Daven, Pubalan... They play games that need to use hand. Like 1, 2 jus, who lose, gotta kena whack on the hand. All of us played until hands red. Dinesh was extremely kind to teach me a few more techniques. At the end it was 5 againts 1, i loss. But they enjoyed hitting my hand =D haha sadist! =P

There was one kid which was super attached to me. I keep forgetting his name, hard to pronounce also. He kept wanting me to swing him around, carry him, play games... Super sweet =3 He is only 3 years old. Very light, so i can carry him up easily. I played with him what me and daddy used to play - giant and the kid =) he'll step on my feet, also i'll hold his hand and walk.

He was injured, he came and find me. I said gotta wash 1st, he didnt want to but i insist so he did =) he let out the cutest 'ouch....' i've ever heard.... =3 I AM IN LOVE WITH HIM!!! I so so SOOO wana bring him home with me... ='( i so happen to have a plaster in my wallet, so i helped him plaster his hand. Then another kid came to me, and said his hand pain, injured, got blood. I said sorry, i do not have extra plaster... He was sad =( i am sorry. i took him to the care giver, the mann said 'OK' and brough the kid in. Later when i check, they did not do anything to his wound. Just let it be -.- I know it is noraml for kids to get injured while playing. But i can't take it when kids are injured. I just cant... I am sorry ='(

Oh and by the way, they ran around, played bare footed. The trampoline that they used to have wasnt there. The kids say it got broken already. LOL =D

They learn hip-hop dance and also musical instrument. Daven asked me do i know the girl from the magazine. I said "That girl is me! see~" =D but he said no wor..... =( he said the girl in the magazine never wear specs one. HAHA! Kids are hard to fool =P

When we were about to go home, they all line up in a straight line to say bye. I was really unwilling to part with the 3year old kid. He held my hand everywhere he went. Kept pouncing on me, wanting me to carry him and, piggy back, etc... I was really unwilling to leave. He said the sweetest "bye bye" to me ='3

Dinesh said 'bye bye' to me. He also said something that really touched my heart... He said "Che che, next time we play again OK?" T.T i did not promise him anything...

I got out of the compound, tears started to swell up in my eyes and it trickle down my cheek... ='(

I am sorry. I do not know when i can come and visit again. Maybe not so soon. I'm sorry as i'm afraid i cant get to 'play with you again'... =(

Those kids are there because their parents were abusive / their parents cant afford to take care of them / parents busy and will visit them for time to time (twice a month?) / some of them and orphans... There was only 1 chinese kid there named Loh, the rest were Indians.

It felt great to be there again. Some of the kids i've met before have grown up quite a lot. I felt genuine happiness with them there. Although they may not be happy deep down, but i am glad i did make a difference in their lives, even if it's just for an hour...

This was when my kids said bye bye to me.... T.T sob sob sob sob sob sob sob sob.... ='(

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After the trip, we headed back to church for youth mass. We watched The Butterfly Circus which was a movie regarding believing in yourself. Featuring the guy without arms and legs...

Inspirational movie... Nice to watch.

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Today was A FRUITFUL DAY!

Dear Lord, THANK YOU =3 for EVERYTHING...

Miss Independent ^^

2011-09-11T19:15:00.002+08:00

I do admit that with you gone, things are different. Especially since u've always fetched me back, text + talk to me, hang out.
This makes me realise that i need to be independent ~! =D

I need to get a new hobbie and also purpose in life ^^

Thanks Wendy for the inspiration! MUAX!! Will gambateh ;)
Outing with Ah Dy seems to be great and relaxing. Dy, we should do this more often!! XD
Steamboat and lake side, nice =)

My Philosophy =)

2011-09-01T01:33:00.000+08:00

I believe, that when i tell some personal stuff to a friend, regardless of who he or she is, there is this sort of 'invinsible bond'.
I believe, that there is a certain level of TRUST and FRIENDSHIP between that individual and I.
Therefore I tend to expect a bit more from that friend than from the rest of the crowd.
For instance, keeping my secret. Care about my feeling. Etc.
I dont think demanding this is being too much. Do you?
I do think that what i've typed here does make sense. Well at least to me :)

Disclaimer : this post does not refer to anyone in particular. If you terasa, well then maybe you should reflect on yourself =P

*******

Anyway, room had an 'earthquake' -.- tile suddenly just cracked! zzz!! Dad says it's the pressure. Idk what is it to be honest. Thank God i wasnt asleep that time... It happened right under my BED! GOSH! >o<
The contractor came and took a look at it. Have to open up every one of the tiles in my room, and re-tile...

NOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!

I cant sleep in my room for at least 4 days ='(

******

Anyway, internals are coming up on the 8th and 9th. Im not rajin enough! >< USH!!!

GO ME GO MEEE!!! XD

Specially to P Head Wong

2011-08-30T00:30:00.001+08:00

Hey hey :) take care there. Comment here so that I'll know you've been here. I will miss you ♥ see you on Skype soon. Something's wrong with my microphone. Cant use Nokia hands free so gotta buy 1. But till then, see your face also not bad ler ☺

remember this? :D

hehehe :P

Waiting for you to contact me. Good night yea :)

Blessings in Disguise

2011-08-23T21:17:00.001+08:00

I do feel extremely blessed today! :D

Helped a blind guy to cross the road today between quite heavy traffic. I feel so blessed to have what i have 2day. Who want to be a missionary? Hmmm.... :D

Plus, i was quite upset today but i am VERY GRATEFUL to have a person who cares to lend me his ever listening ears :D and also got to play ipad2 ^^v

And when i was in the car on the way back home the radio played a song that goes like this :
'cuz u had a bad day, u're taking 1 down, u sing a sad song just to turn it around...'

Wao! Yes i DID had a bad day! I feel so so so touched. The Lord understands :)

I LOVE YOU WORLD! AND I WILL TRY MY BEST TO MAKE IT A BETTER PLACE! ;)

See me with a big smile, n u would know im living my life to the fullest! :P

RESULTS!

2011-08-19T20:54:00.000+08:00

Results for Unit 1 of Bio, Chem, Phy and also C1 and C2 are out! ><

Bio C

Chem A

Phy E

C1 A

C2 A

UGH! SO UGLY LOOKING RESULTS!

SAD :(

Gotta work harder!

Gotta prove it to me and to the whole WORLD!

I CAN DO IT! >< GAMBATEH!

I am DETERMINED now more than EVER! ><

'Winners NEVER quit, quiters NEVER win'

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Med school here i come! ♥

No pharmacy pls... =/

Malaysian Studies - South Africa 101

2011-08-17T23:16:00.003+08:00

During Moral Studies, Mr Yoshua let us watch a movie named INVICTUS.

The story is about how Nelson Mandela, who came out of jail after 27 years in it, had made a difference in the life of all Afrikans through the game of rugby!

Although then, a new government had already been formed and Apartheid had been banned. There was still tension between the white minorities and the black majority. However, he managed to UNITED the country by backing up the nation's rugby team - Springboks and won the 1995 Rugby World Cup.

This is really an amazing and INSPIRING movie which rate 9 on my scale of 1 to 10.

'I am the master of my fate; I am the captain of my soul' - Nelson Mandela

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Mr Yoshua's g.ma died 2 days ago, involved in an accident. Sad. My deepest condolence...

God please bless his popo :)

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Sang aloud during PAC while auditioning. I hit a relatively high note! =D didnt know i had it in me ;)
Thank God for this gift ♥

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Going for CF camp soon. From 4th to 6th September ^^v but 8th and 9th is qualifying test. Hope to do well. God willing...

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Results for Semester 1 are gonna be out TOMORROW~ =/ gan jiong...

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Happy Bday Chun Kit :) God bless you!

Invictus - Poem That Inspired A Nation

2011-08-17T23:00:00.000+08:00

Having real life flash backs :O

2011-02-19T01:18:00.003+08:00

A piece of from the past was brought up by innocent friends while we were on the way to CS.
You seem quite when they mention it. Thank goodness you denied those allegations. Save the trouble explaining things =)
Let by gones be by gones.
You will be nothing but a memory from the past.
Merging beta and delta? NOT A CHANCE! Not through us.
But it is amazing how small little gestures can be mistaken by multitudes of people!
So happened we sat in the same bus, side by side, and during cf we sat at the sat table coincidentally.
Then some people were saying 'why are you guys always together?' LOL
HAHA hilarious! XD
People started asking me 'So is it for real? You with him?' i was like WHAT?! O.o
Someone even gave em chocolates on V-day! And they thought it was me! Goodness, could you believe that?? =O
But sometimes i do wish that i've never let go. Cuz when i think back, sometimes i will fell 'aiya, he was the right one...' BUT, God you alone are the sole decision maker. I leave it into your hand Dear Lord. I love YOU Jesus ;D

I'm Studying Now!!!

2011-01-16T00:03:00.000+08:00

Yo peeps! I'm studying @ Methodist College pursuing A-Levels! Yesh...

About all the thing i mentioned in the previous post, well screw them, it aint gonna happen....
Well the bright side is, haha~ well i get to meet new friends and start studying way earlier. Yup! =D

And a guy actually 'proposed' to me the other day. But then he dumped me. (i didn't even accept) LOL.
It's a long story. Malas wana type it out here.

Anyways, good luck and good night!

God Bless all of YOU! ;D

Cross Roads =D

2010-12-22T16:35:00.000+08:00

Lately, cuz comp broke down (again), so cant online. So since i manage to get my hands on some one's comp, i decided to blog =D This might be a looooooong story. Not for the faint of heart ;D

Well, SPM is finally over. The burden has been lifted!! =D but here comes the important yet hard part - choosing the right career path.Yup. Having studied for so long in a government school, it makes me wonder what is it all for. Haha!

I recently went to Education fair.Many many many many booths, many many many colleges around. I've actually decided to venture into the Science field. Might go for Medicine or Pharmacy cuz i hearts ♥ Bio and Chem. But mostly i'll go for Medicine ;D
But now the other dilemma is - where to study at? Do i take all of my courses locally of overseas, future job options, etc... LOL. There are just too many things to consider nowadays.
Hmmm most likely i would wana be a doctor! =D yup. I might (might) go for Foundation in Nirwana College which last for 6 months. Then will head off to Russia to study at (KSMU) ^^ yup. So, if i really decide on that, i won't be seeing much of my friends around M'sia anymore *yesh, i'm talking about all of you! =(
But! There is also another solution.That is, go to Indonesia O.o it sounds....Dangerous actually, hah... with volcanic eruption, earth quake, tsunami... It sounds quite scary.

So anyways, i'll take this 3 months time to find out more about myself first. Won't wana jump into conclusions, just in case i'll regret later. Cuz it aint easy. Seriously. For Medicine, it takes 6 years to qualify. And if add on the amount of years ahead if i plan to specialise, it would take roughly another 4 to 6 years O.O crazy leh.... =)
Therefore i really have to be both mentally, emotionally and also physically prepared. Firstly because, i will have to study consistently (something like SPM but only thing its much longer and much much more important)
Secondly, Russia is very cold. I'll miss my family and friends badly on top pf that.
Thirdly... haha! don't wana blabber so much here. I just know that it'd a tough journey ahead. Not for the faint of heart!!
But the bright side is, i'll get to meet Chin Wah there!! *wink!!! ;D and also learn about diff cultures, places and etc. So. it aint that bad, right? =)

Hmmmm but first thing's first, i wana get a JOB!! =D anybody interested??? Do ajak me kay ^^ i wana earn some money. Hoho! I would definitely like the feeling when i receive my first pay cheque =D
Speaking of money, Monday was a bad day for me. i went out with Ai, Lun, Hung, Lim Chee and the gang, by the end of the day i was literally BROKE. There was only RM2 in my wallet and i had no money to get home! *paise =S Luckily Kok Sam offered to belanja me. Thank God so much for him ^^ but anyhow i still feel paise...
So you see, money aint easy to get. It's easier to spend than to earn. Seriously! I gotta find a job. I must!!! =D

Well this is the end of my long post already. I wana do many other things during this 3 month duration.But i'm afraid there won't be enough time.

To those who are staring their studies in January, good luck! ;D
I shall enjoy first =P
This weekend i'll be having dinner with standard 6 classmates!! Woot~ =D 5 years is a really long time. We haven't met since. Really long time no see XD
Not sure how i'll feel when i see them again ;D

2010-11-24T23:14:00.000+08:00

Lord, please help me as I struggle through these remaining days of exam.

May I never lose faith in You.

Grant me the wisdom and understanding, Lord.

Grant me the strength to wholeheartedly place my trust in you.

I will do my best, and let You handle the rest...

Amen.

THE MOST EMBARRASSING DAY

2010-10-08T21:38:00.000+08:00

Exam fever is ON!

I'd say : "Bring it on you pieces of paper! I shall conquer you!! And shred you into pieces!!!!~"

Anyway, today is THE most EMBARRASSING day of my 16+ year old life.
Got a terrible terrible TERRIBLE shock till i burst into tears.
I'm not expecting an apology or a comfort.
It was so embarrassing i don't even want to talk about it.
SO THERE!!

I dislike today....

8th of October 2010 !!!! ><

Something About Love ♥ by David Archuleta

2010-09-06T09:32:00.003+08:00

♥ this song for now ^^

xoxo

Confirmation Gathering ♥

2010-09-06T09:23:00.000+08:00

This is our official BBQ gathering after Confirmation. It was a FUN night ^^

By the pool... The water... The food... Gosh it was splendid!

Pictures speaks louder than words. So here goes :)

find that pot of gold! ;)

little kiddies ^^

wet wet wet ~

the-monkey-man O.O

drying up & food & camwhoring ;D

err i dont know what pose is this XD

*******

Awesome night.

Next gathering, to the BEACH!! =D

Awesome day ~

2010-08-28T16:57:00.003+08:00

I feel awesome today! :D

awww~ sweet :D

i've found that guy ^^

that's what he said to me (^^)V

it's so true...

yesh yesh~!

All these are inspired by my one and only...

Mr. Wong Chun Kit ♥

This is for you ^^

hearts ♥

2010-08-27T23:55:00.000+08:00

i don't want to grow up ^^

2010-08-17T15:04:00.009+08:00

Happy Burst-day to YOU!

xoxo

Hari Koko 2010 ^^

2010-08-07T16:34:00.000+08:00

St John Ambulance made history by having jualan this year! Coselaw wasn't a big hit among students... I'll make sure not to prepare healthy food to sell next time as most students prefer salty, oily and unhealthy food ><

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CHONG WENDY!!!

See you later ;D

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Happy Sweet 17 to you!!

BFF <3

2010-07-28T23:50:00.000+08:00

I have shocking news....

I WANNA GO ON A DIET!! ><'

I adore Wii... NOT! random random moments ;D

2010-07-28T22:30:00.039+08:00

Playing Wii is more tiring than marching!!

Monday after school Nic ajak me to play Wii since he has no school today.
Played Wii boxing. The craziest moment ever! I boxed like doing chicken dance XD
Anyway, playing was fun. But the after effect was HORRID!

My muscles, starting from the shoulder blade down till my biceps, aching like crap!
More tiring than marching. Can't even hold my bottle water. Nor carry a bag pack with one hand without feeling strainous...

It has been 3 days now and counting. There is still a slight pain at the shoulder and elbow part.
The after math of Wii... Horrid! But i enjoyed...
Blek!!! ;P

*******

I met my primary school during tuition ^^
I mean i saw him last week itself, being in the same class and all. But i didnt get a chance to talk to him.
Noticed him when teacher called his name last week.
Was thinking like "Ei, his name sounds familiar..."
And with a quick glance i knew he was Ho Jian Li.
Gosh his features haven't changed a bit! But of course hair style different already la.

Today at tuition, when he walked into class i was like "gasp!". I so don't know how to strike a conversation with long lost friends. I'm as blur as a... well as something!
Well anyway he waved at me as acknowledging me. But too bad he didn't saw Min Hua.
Hmmmm actually he did i guess, just that maybe we didnt notice.

After that i was laughing... from like ha-ha till haha-haha and a HAHAHA-HAHAHAHA!
LOL! I was happy. Not cuz of any indecent thing. But cuz i met my old friend again!!
You know, the feeling of meeting someone who is such a stranger now but was once a friend whom you used to go around chasing after an whacking...

Gosh i miss primary school.
I miss those days...
Just look at me now, 17 already!!
I've tried going back to school to look for my Std6 teacher but i couldn't find her.
Maybe she knows i'm coming and went into hiding =(

But i met most of my old teachers. Imagine a girl walking around the whole of SJKC Desa Jaya, from block to block just to catch a glimpse of her old teachers.
And every class room she passed by has some bitter sweet memories. Well mostly sweet once ^^

But maybe that day just wasn't my day.
I only manage to walk pass each class, didnt went in and beri salam.
I mean, of course it'll be rude to just barge into the middle of a parent-teacher discussion and say hi right.
So on that faithful day i spent my time exercising my calf muscles. Yup =D

Now that i'll be graduating from Secondary School soon, it makes me wonder how things will be like after this.
No more boundaries.

IT'S A JUNGLE OUT THERE!!!
(famous catch from the tv series Cougar Town ;D *wink)

Anyway, i long time tak blog. But when start to type my fingers just wont stop.
Kaka! But i'll stop now =)

*****

Owh ya. Hi Fishy! :D
Glad that you're back already.
10 days really wasn't that much for me to handle.
So imagine 4 YEARS!
No big deal man.
I'm as tough as a rock!! XP

*****

Good night people =)

2010-06-20T00:31:00.000+08:00

Hi i'm back!! ^^

I'm gonna go for a camp next week, but Father's Day dinner is on the same week too!!!
Aaarrrggh dilemma dilemma~ aiks.

School's reopening already. Luckily i had a chance to watch 3 movies during this 2 week holiday ^^
Prince of Persia, Sherk Forever After and Toy Story 3

Kaka! Cao peeps! Night.

xoxo

Christine

21 To-Do-Facts ! ;D

2010-05-18T09:49:00.002+08:00

I received this from an email. Interesting ;D

ONE. Give people more than they expect and do it cheerfully.

TWO. Marry a man/woman you love to talk to. As you get older, their conversational skills will be as important as any other.

THREE. Don't believe all you hear, spend all you have or sleep all you want.

FOUR. When you say, 'I love you,' mean it.

FIVE. When you say, 'I'm sorry,' look the person in the eye.

SIX. Be engaged at least six months before you get married.

SEVEN. Believe in love at first sight.

EIGHT. Never laugh at any one's dreams. People who don't have dreams don't have much.

NINE. Love deeply and passionately. You might get hurt but it's the only way to live life completely.

TEN. In disagreements, fight fairly. No name calling.

ELEVEN. Don't judge people by their relatives.

TWELVE. Talk slowly but think quickly.

THIRTEEN. When someone asks you a question you don't want to answer, smile and ask, 'Why do you want to know?'

FOURTEEN. Remember that great love and great achievements involve great risk.

FIFTEEN. Say 'bless you' when you hear someone sneeze.

SIXTEEN. When you lose, don't lose the lesson.

SEVENTEEN. Remember the three R's: Respect for self; Respect for others; and Responsibility for all your actions.

EIGHTEEN. Don't let a little dispute injure a great friendship.

NINETEEN. When you realize you've made a mistake, take immediate steps to correct it.

TWENTY. Smile when picking up the phone. The caller will hear it in your voice

TWENTY- ONE. Spend some time alone.

I find Trouble first, then Trouble come and find ME again =(

2010-05-14T23:14:00.000+08:00

I got myself into deep trouble.

Sorry piggy and botak head....

Scared will have dilemma here =(

Exam's next week.

If you look closely you can see pimples on my face already.

The HORROR!

Pimples are so not good for the face.

And today, Nic asked me where does gel come from, i said nose shit.

Why?

Because nose shit and gel have the same texture which is, they are both STICKY!

I'm so clever X) LOL... I'm a bit off course ~~today~~ these few days.

Kaka~! XD

K, cao peeps ^^

2010-05-09T18:59:00.000+08:00

i feel silly.
as in, i didnt go for dinner and now i feel sucky.
feel like wana go chase after my parent's car and go for dinner...
ugh, i suck in decision making!
i wanna go dinner...
wuwuwuwu.... T.T
staying at home, sendirian~
wanna sing Akon's song ady...
LONELY~~

Mama's Day XD

2010-05-09T18:23:00.001+08:00

Dad bought flowers for mum for Mama's Day! XD

At this time i'm suppose to go for Mother's Day dinner with my dad's extended family at Mandarin Oriental.
But, i didnt go, cuz..... Hah~ tak mau cakap XP

Since today, smart me manage to fix my modem, as in fix the wiring, so MEEE~ I am gonna use the comp since i've been away for so long.

Exam is coming! Next week... Gambateh! ;D

ANGRY!!!!

2010-04-25T16:50:00.002+08:00

My brothers ate my ~~anniversary~~ cake arr!!!

I'm very angry right now!!!
Don't like arr!!!
How could they. How could they!
I already said NO!
NO NO NO NO NO NO!!!
I freaking hate it!

2010-04-24T14:03:00.002+08:00

Quite beh song...

NO WAY I"M DETELING MY STUFF.

YOU DELETE YOURS!

Recently...

2010-04-20T18:44:00.001+08:00

Hey hey, long time never blog already...
Hmmm, recently i might seem a little high over my head with all the giggling and etc...
Well, i don't know how to describe my recent feelings.
Add maths results was horrid. I mean seriously horrid! ><
Don't want to disclose any unsightly information here...
Other results were so so too...
My parents say "Buck up!"...
Woot... -.-

Anyway, my Confirmation Day was on the 17th of April 2010.
Well, it has passed. I did not had the time to blog about it as my computer was ruined.

That day, was the most splendid day of my life!
I made a promise... Hehe! and the Archbishop Murphy Parkiam blessed me ^^
Pictures will be uploaded as soon as i have the time.

Hehe!

Christine Anne is a girl and she is strong!!! ;D
Gambateh!!! ^^
Bye~~~

2010-04-06T23:40:00.000+08:00

I'm back!!

But for awhile only la...

Shall abandon my blog a lot nowadays.

~ love ~

*I wanna go to that thingy!
*Try and stop me, noobs! >o<

Confirmation Camp Rocks!! ^^

2010-03-22T10:52:00.001+08:00

Past 2 days of Confirmation Camp was AWESOME!!!

♡♡♡♡♡ it a whole lot!!

Wish to have it again...

I missed out a lot of nice photos as my phone is in workshop.

More pictures on Facebook! =D

Praise be to God!!

2010-03-20T23:59:00.003+08:00

Put a stop in time and tell me what I've done is wrong...

Life goes on without you knowing, you have got to stand up, carry your cross and follow Him...

Today, on the 20th of March, i can finally live light heartedly.

It's not that i do not cherish each and every moment.

It is the guilt that's haunting me.

Live your life, enjoy college...

There's more to life than just her...

You've got your family and friends!

So cheer up! =D

Go on, and explore the world!

You'll do just fine without her.

I know you would...

Love is so abstract.

How could i love a person when i'm not sure whether i love myself.

Whereas God's love is so unconditional!

I'm craving for that sense of belonging to that Almighty love.

She's not the only 'everything' in your life.

our firendship remains and never can end

Just remember that...

Friends...

2010-03-17T16:38:00.002+08:00

Friends... How much do i actually understand about this word?
One day you see them smiling at you, and the next they could be far off at the end gossiping about who knows what.
That's life. Not the fairy tale type, but the rough edged type.
I suddenly recall something, and realise that everyone would, one way or another, put up a show in front of someone.
Come on, don't tell me none of you people did it before!!
Some would express beh-song-ness to some other people, but some would prefer to remain silent about it.
There are actually many controversies going on now. Many of which i know about.
Haha! Seems awkward and unsightly when you witness friends being torn apart and hating each other because of an unsignificant matter.
But life goes on, right?
Live life to the max people.
I love you ALL~ ♡
Friends come and go.
I admit, i use to care about those trival things, but now i am not bothered anymore.
Love me or just walk off.
I do treasure you as a friend, just hope that you would not change into a complete stranger in years to come...

Sunshine or a rainy day...

I shall still smile!

2010-03-17T14:33:00.002+08:00

Gambateh this holiday! study =.=

Going KLCC tomorrow =) woot~

To those who are going Genting > try to have fun without me XP

*too perasan, sorry*

Anyway guys, have fun! ^^

Random + Bored = Rambordom -.-

2010-03-08T01:11:00.001+08:00

Meee, long time never update blog...

Recently very short fused... Bad temper ><

Anyway, St John won again in the kawad kaki thing during Sports Day 2010.
We've been winning for 4 years straight.
Wonder why the excitment vanished so fast...

Live life, Love life...

And truth be told, i'm secretly a big fan of The Biggest Loser Asia.

I watch it every single week =D
Mum says it's so saddistic to watch people working their butt off while i sit on the couch and tune in to their suffering and sweaty workouts.
Well i seem to enjoy it much XD

Just some silly random stuff...

2010-03-01T21:47:00.000+08:00

My picture for Moral Kerja Amal...

Fake enough?? XD

The Season of Lent :)

2010-02-28T13:00:00.004+08:00

TODAY! Another random day... I have homework waiting for me to finish... 3 BM essays. Zzzz....
God has been gracious, that i manage to keep my sanity up till now...

Lent 2010 begins on Ash Wednesday, February 17, 2010.
Lent recalls the forty days of our Lord's fasting in the desert, which He undertook before entering into His public ministry.

Lent, is a time for sacrifice, abstainance and prayer.
Sacrifice the things we love to do...
Abstain from meat (which go for every Friday actually)
And burry yourself in prayer...
A time to look at ourselves and make a change.
To build a deeper relationship with God the Almighty.
A time to be self-less and repent.
Give alms to the needy and the poor.
"More over, try to do so with the trust that God sees your efforts,and that, paradoxically, there is no greater satisfaction or reward" :)

Yesterday, the priest say there's no shying away from suffering, as everyone has to go through it.
Jesus is the Son of God, but why did He had to die a painful death by being nail on the cross?
That, is a great mystery...

Yesterday, i was angry early in the morning...
Had to attend a meeting but time was delayed.
Was angry at my parents, but now i rethink, i shouldn't have done that...
Sometims i feel i'm ungreatful.

Parents, they're the most wonderful thing anyone could ever have.
They're there, no matter what happens.
Mummy... Sigh, i dunno how to help her in her health.
Pray, keep praying... That'w what i can do.
Hoping for miraces to happen.
Daddy has started to push me these days, why do people have high hopes on me?
Uncle Tay has been talking to me about scholarships during CNY period.
My cousin has been on scholarship since Form3 and he never looked back...
He's easing his parents burden, and i wanna try to do the same...

During this Season of Lent, things have gotta change.
I look myself in the mirror and say "hey, it's time to change..."

I feel lost touch with the Word of God lately.
Will try to live a life that God wants.
"Because at the end of the day, when you meet God, the first thing He'll ask you is 'What have you done for me?", this is what Sister Getruth said :)

2010-02-25T22:54:00.000+08:00

Malurian Idol anyone??

Audition is staring next Monday...

GAMBATEH!! ;D

Spaghetti ♨

2010-02-21T14:21:00.000+08:00

Today parents decided to cook spghetti for lunch, so i helped...
Boil the spaghetti, the sauce, veges and meat.

When everything was done i sat down and had a taste of my cooking (not exactly MY cooking lar) XP
I, felt that it taste... odd. Don't know...
Asked Nic, he says it taste great; Bro had no comment; Mum says it taste yummy; Dad says my taste buds are not meant for Italian food @.@

Owh well, maybe dad's right...
I've never fancied spaghetti.

Don''t belanja me makan spaghetti!!! >< Beat you err~~~
Anything but that ;P

End of the Road

2010-02-20T13:37:00.000+08:00

Lately been reading this book:

Lately don't have much to blog about.
Been brushing through old picture files in my comp...

our master piece in school when i was in form 3

This year is da last year in secondary school for me...

Live Life to the MAX!!

Peace out ;D

Gong Xi Valentine '10 ^^

2010-02-16T14:09:00.003+08:00

Yo yo yo!! Haha~ This year, how lucky it is for CNY to fall on the same day as Valentine's Day

Okies... Now, for the eve on CNY, went grandparents house for a short reunion dinner, then went Pavillion for another reunion dinner... Yup!

Pics...

Next, 1st day of CNY / Valentine's Day, went to church in the morning. The new Jesus Caritas Church. In case you dunno where it is, it's near the Maluri- Kepong flyover bridge... After church, went to 1U Shogun for makan makan X) met my little one year old nephew Zikry there...

More pics...

this is the way baby Zikry smile XD

daddy looks full

bro is missing in this pic, he went food hunting X)

anuty - niece - niece

Ethan

2nd day of CNY, went to Mid Valley to watch Percy Jackson and the Lighting Thief.

After that, walked to Ai's house from train station @.@ Sticky and sweaty, went to his house to get a change of clothes (stripe T-shirt). Saw his parents O.O got angpao ^^ enjoyed at Ai's house...

Pics pics pics...

Today i'm gonna go watch Little Big Soldier

Cao~~

Gong Xi Valentine form me all of you ;D

Christine ♡

xoxo

2010-02-13T18:30:00.001+08:00

Aloha peeps!!

Almost forgotten i had a blog XP

Well, everything is fine now =D

No time to blog. Gtg reunion dinner O.o

Pavillion here i come :D

Owh and one last thing...

Happy Chinese new Year and Valentine's Day

Christine

xoxo

203 days, according to FM117...

2010-02-08T00:31:00.000+08:00

Hell, had terrible diarrhea these days, dunno what's wrong with me...
Today is so not my day...
Awful, terrible, sucky, shit, tahi, crap, idiotic, stupid, hell...

I dont wana continue lying anymore.
Enough is enough...
I had to do it...

Stupid christine...
She's stupid...
Plan to tell on 2nd day...
Stupid christine anne...

Argued... First time today...
It never happened before, not as serious as this (i feel).
Is the situation changed?
Or am i the one who feels that...
Things changed in just a few hours...

Complete strangers...
Is this how it's gonna be?
But i cannot don't care...
I'm glued...
Can you help unglue me?

Tears...
People tell me, let it flow...
I say, i'm flowing like a tap here...
But it doesn't help ease the situation...

If you ask me am i dying...
The answer is no.
NO.
I'm still very much alive.
Endure it, and you'll be the toughest kid on the block...

Wait...
Just wait...
Things will fall in to place...

In years to come, i'll look back at this moment and laugh...
Laugh at myself...
Laugh at you...
Laugh at us.

I'm done sobbing.
Nothing else to say.
No comments to give.

Just wait...
And like i said, things will fall into place.
Someday...
And that day, will come.

I believe so...

Daddy says...

2010-02-06T16:27:00.000+08:00

Daddy says a good leader stands up and fights for their subordinates when they are being "attacked".

That proves that person has leadership qualities wor...

O.O it makes me wonder....

BRACES NO MORE!! ^^

2010-01-30T16:06:00.001+08:00

TODAY, I FEEL GOOD!!!

YOU KNOW WHY????

CUZ....

TODAY! I GOT MY BRACES REMOVED!!!

HOHO!!!

Notice my teeth are metal-FREE?? hehe~

Soooo happy! Althought i am still trying to get use to the metal-less teeth ^^
Sooo darn happy! During lunch, i don't need to keep minding about food stucking in between the gaps or anything.
I'm free from misery and hell! YAY!! ^^
No more agonising pain... Now it's like SM00TH and SHiNY
*haha maybe the shiny part is a little over exagerrating XP

BUT i need to wear retainers to align the teeth lar.
Owh well, it's MUCH better than to have metal poking around in my mouth =D
And just in time for the up coming CNY celebrations =)

Plus, today i'll be attending a relative's wedding dinner. HOHO!
Smile for da camera babey~! :D

And, St John week is just next week. Can't wait for the exhibition.

OKAY peeps! Toodles~ :D

SMILE :D

xoxo

Christine ♡

DULL day :(

2010-01-24T14:51:00.001+08:00

Today, suppose to go gai gai... But didn't cuz bro's sick.
So, had to stay at home...
I would sound like a rebelious freak if i start mourning and cursing here.
But i do feel down now...
I wanna go shopping lar, dun wana be stranded here... SIGH~
My inner self is asking me to be more reasonable...
Well, i'll try to.
Cuz i wanna go out i missed a quite important meeting, and now.... sigh... dunno lar!

I've been listening to Smile by Uncle Kraker. Hope it helps ease me up...

RANDOM xp

2010-01-22T16:14:00.002+08:00

Today is a Friday... i didn't go to school cuz i'm not taking BC paper. In other words, i ponteng *yay meee!*

Today since i'm super darn free, decided to catch up on my sleep. So guess what time i woke up?
DENG DENG DENG~ 12pm! WOOHOO~!
I haven't be able to sleep like that for a long time already... Well the last time i have a sleeping routine like that was during the previous school holidays... but who cares??!! HAHA!

And since today is a FREE FRIDAY ^^ i've decided to come on9 and blog, once again.

Lately have been feeling very high + crazy + odd. HOHO!
That day mum was washing her car cuz wana get rid of the bird shit. That day i was studying Chem. And, duno what made me told me mum "mummy, bird shit hor, dun wash, must LICK!"
XD !!! mummy started at me with a 'oh gosh my daughter is crazy, God please save my soul' kind of look.
HAHA!!! later on, i started asking my parents "got anybody hor, go form4 but take form5 tuition then go form5 only take form5 tuition or not leh?" Daddy was like "you got fever today is it?"

LOL! But actually i did had fever recenly. I wasn't feeling too good that day either. HAH!

Well, cao now....
Nick wana invade this laptop now...
HEHE!

PS: currently feeling that i'm quite useless as a gf. but who cares!!! XP

My Brains Have Been Deep-fried! Hangus sumor...

2010-01-17T00:47:00.000+08:00

Is this how form 5 life should be?
Being stucked to books and busy tuition schedule?
Why last year's students (from what i observe) do not have the same "intense" feeling that i'm having now 的...
And it's only January leh =X
Me paranoid? Maybe...
我不要以这种方法过 form5!
Sucky leh!
Wana have time to play also =(
I hope the "study pressure" doesn't eat me up...

My brains have been deep-fried!

Hangus sumor...

Well, all the best to all for...

Intervensi Satu!

BIG FAT DISAPPOINTMENT =(

2010-01-09T15:43:00.004+08:00

Hmmm, fisrt day of school was terrible. Miss Khor told us we are gona have exams on the 18th of JANUARY! Alor pengsan man~ ish ish ish~ HATE IT!

******

Heard of the recent boom blasting of churches in Malaysia lately? Sad sad sad. Read all about it on MSN news. I don't know what to say. SO disappointing... Why are people behaving like uncivilised human beings? Burning up places and causing unese in the country. Pray pray pray~

THE WORLD NEEDS LOVE!

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Ushering the New Year with S-T-Y-L-E

2010-01-01T14:29:00.012+08:00

Happy New Year!

Today went to Metro Prima Space Art to take a look at some of Nic's camp picture. Was looking around at the pictures when i saw Chung Yao and Chau Chee's pictures there. GOSH! Terkejut sial! My famly and i then went into a video room to watch the camp video. Then i saw Chung Yit and Yao's sis at a corner. Looked to another corner i saw Yao pulak XD looking at the video and he had a 'syok sendiri' laugh on his face. We talked too loud till an aunty 'sshhhhhh' at us. Malu-nya~

After the Space Art thingy, family decided to go out shopping @ Sogo. I placed my thumb at the side of the door and when Nic was about to go in, BOOM! My finger was stucked there. It took me a few seconds then only i felt the pain. Then when i took my thunb out, there was no feeling for awhile. It was numb. later on the pain came, and blood started to flow out. WALAO! I was like 'ouch, ouch, ouch...'. Wanted to cry but held back my tears. From a shopping spree, it turned into a hunt for plaster at the Pharmacy. Sigh... Luckily it wasn't my right hand. If not i won't be able to right cuz my thumd is pain and numb. Sigh~

What a way to usher the new year. I did it with 'S-T-Y-L-E'
X)

My Thoughts

2009-12-29T12:06:00.001+08:00

There are a few things on my mind. Can't seem to shake them off...

Know how it's like to be compared?? Well it kinda sucks... It does suck, actually! Suddenly feel i'm much better without anyone (him). Weird? Probably... Gf material... hmmm, ever wonder what that is? Does it mean it's the 'material' a girl comes with? Short? Tall? Fat? Thin? Pretty? Ugly? (or so they call it)... Well, i believe people will accept me for being just me, and not trying to be somebody else. And uh, i feel i'm happy with the way things are... So i don't feel a need to change (not for you or anybody else, keep that in mind).

Miss my friends. Can't wait to be back in school! Although it does seem odd for anyone to look forward to school. But, i somehow feel connected to them. Ai, Lim Chee, Yao... Basically the gang. It feels nice to actually hang out with people that you can be yourself with and not with someone where you have to wear different kind of 'mask' in front of them. Yup. And it's our last year of school next year. I want the best of everything! (Please, Lord). I wana make things worth while it lasts. I really can't wait for school. *smile =)
Yea yea, i know he won't be there... But so what? I think i can live without em. I believe i did + can + will survive! After all, he has his own 'i'm-free-and-i can-do-whatever-i-want' life now. ~~I so hope he gets another girl out there and leave me heart broken like a piece of junk here at TBM.~~

Lately i haven't been praying much. I mean really, i start my day with text messages and end my day with text messages too. Mum says if i continue being glued to my phone she will take it away from me... Ouch~ i don't want that. I think i should ignore my phone and start reconnecting with God again. Lately i can't feel His presence. Cuz i'm glued to me idiotic phone! *sigh

Well it's still morning... Shall enjoy the last few days of my holidays while it last. Haha, somehow i feel like throwing my ~~precious~~ phone away. I mean, who needs it? Many people before us 21th century freaks appeared did not have cell phone and they can even survive till 100++ of age. Hah!

Anyways, cao~! It's Code Geass time *wink

i don't wanna miss a thing

2009-12-28T14:58:00.000+08:00

Code Geass series 1 done.
Now for number 2!
Hoho~
I'm thrilled =)

Hmmm~ these days i feel like i got nothing else to blog ler.
Might not update as frequent as i use to.
I'm quite of blogging already, actually.

Owh well, i'll update when i got anything interesting to say.
Ooo ooo, i started writing diary again.
A very simple one.
Just for fun.

Owh ya, the new Plasma TV just came.
Another piece of multimedia junk at home, i guess...
Don't know what to say...
Yay me? -.-
Um, hi new TV?
Lame...

Anyway, next year would be the last year of my secondary school life.
And i don't wanna miss a single thing!!
=)

Good luck everybody.
muax~

Blessed Christmas 2009

2009-12-27T16:54:00.000+08:00

Blessed Christmas !

Malas wana update lar.
Well, ok, maybe just a bit.
Went to Ai's house on Christmas Eve.
Had presents, from him too ^^

P.S: enjoy your Penang trip ;D

Great~

2009-12-24T02:18:00.000+08:00

Hey-ya blog...
Um, today was a G-R-E-A-T day.
Watched the movie Avatar @ MV.
But i wasn't fully concentrating anyway =]
Met a few bunch of friends along the way.

Today is Christmas Eve.
Tonight i'm going to Ai's house to have fun.
Next Wednesday i might go Sam's house for a party too.
Yup, a few more days till all hell breaks lose and the horror of school starts again.
Aaar life~ hehe!

A new year, a new begining...
hohoho~

2009-12-20T16:33:00.001+08:00

decided to un-private this space again.

i had to choose between best friend and boy friend.

haiz.

tough day.

Anyway, Christmas is coming!!! =D

But, this year dunno why, not very merry...

Nevermind then.

2010 is coming.

Scared~! T^T

Genting Duty!!!

2009-12-20T15:59:00.020+08:00

these are all the available photos of genting trip + duty (for 3 days)

malas wana upload banyak banyak.

Actually Jian Hua uploaded many pics on Facebook BUT Mr.Yee say we cannot upload pictures of duty.

Sooo, terpaksa cancel.

So sorry, limited pictures.

And worse of all,

DUTY HOURS IN A PAID DUTY DOESN'T COUNT!

So, went Genting to duty for nothing.

No duty hour -.-

Aih~

Came back with swollen toes man.

Is it worth it?

I dunno.

Haha!

W-H-A-T-E-V-E-R-!

cao~!

ooo P.S :
in the above picture, you might wonder why Yao's expression was like O.O
well, is somebody ask me, i MIGHT tell =P

*ASK MEEE!!! XD

Don't X out Christ in CHRISTMAS ! ☺

2009-12-13T01:12:00.003+08:00

Everyone's preparing for this Christmas season.
Going shopping, buying new clothes, gifts...
But what's really important is the heart.
Preparing ourself for the coming of Christ.
YES!
Never forget that He diied on the cross to save our sins =)
So for that, BE GREATFUL!
And don't X out the Christ in CHRISTMAS.
HE is what Christmas is all about =3

Me ♥ my family and friends ☺

Owh~
And one last thing...

I ♥ CK! ☺

Privacy Accomplished

2009-12-13T00:50:00.004+08:00

I'm down with the flu!!!!
OKOK...
if anyone's wondering why i have to put you guys into such trouble with my blog, well it's cuz i needed some privacy...
YES my dears, PRIVACY!!

Ok so, WE went out on da 9th.
Actually it was almost canceled but alas! We managed ;)
The whole day was fun EXCEPT my outfit choice was totally not meee~!
CUZ i didn't bring my clothes to g.ma house to change...
SOOO~ had to wear...
aunt's top... and... freaking slippers.
paise ><
Well i didn't get to watch New Moon,

instead, watched Ninja Assassin

WALAO! a lot of blood man!

And besides, i had to FAKE that i was a genuis above 18 girl. Hah!

Is it me, or do i NOT look like my age???? O.o

like a small kid ke?

Anyway, i haven't had fun for quite a long time liao...

And! I found out the ugly truth!

Some people cannot be trusted.

My ex aka SAKAI that i USED to respect after the break up means NOTHING to me now that he backstab me and bad mouth me to him.

PLUS! another hypocrite guy who's name is SH!

He's another terrible fella.

Well, enough expressing...

Genting trip is coming up. EXCITED!

But i won't be around for Nic's bday.

He kind tak syok me BUT i promised to get him a present.

Hmmmm see how ba...

Ok, enough ler.

Cao!

Before i log off, just wana scribble some thing else.

Happy early Birthday Nic!

He's the cutest brother any sister could want.

And not to mention the craziest!

We're like 2 psychos that just escaped from Tanjung Rambutan.

UNSTOPABLE!

*no wonder i don't look my age XP

2009-12-08T00:40:00.001+08:00

today
it seems like everything is a mess

feel like i'm being watched
i have this feeling that i've still a niave little brat.

but how could this be?
i'm already 16 years old?
crazy much?

i've decided.
i wana strip my blog of all pictures
at least, those that i don't want to show.

cuz, what will they say?
i don't know what to answer them
if they shoot me with all sorts of questions then

i wana be a decent girl
a nobody
who cares wheter i'm following the trend or not
i can survive.
i can

privacy is all i need now
maybe i'll turn this into a private blog soon.
my fingers just won't stop itching.

i think next time
updates will only be on description stuff.
i think i'll cut down on the pictures.

actually i started a blog
with an intention
thinking that i would be a pen and paper thing
i didn't expect people to come follow my blog
or visiting this site so frequently

i need my space
no not the popular MySpace thingy
i'm talking about m-y-s-p-a-c-e!

maybe i wana crawl back into a shell
and stay there for as long as possible.

HELL!

do most people get this kind of feeling?
or is it just me.

i don't wana ba a somebody
i wana be a NO-body.
maybe i just don't wana socialise anymore.

i think some thing is wrong with my brain yet again.
maybe it's one of those days where your hair gets all tangled up
and your breath stinks of garlic
and people won't wana go near you cuz you stink like raw fish paste
(just saying)

i am a lunatic
beware!
for sometimes i get scared of my ownself too

Lord, i'm only 16 and i need guidance in life
what has gotten into me?
where's the ohm that i used to have?
all gone?
cannot be...
is it rapped?
i think so...
do i wana find it?
HELL YEAH!

the Christine that you know, may not be her true self
she is just an ordinary girl
with hopes and dreams feelings too

when you look at her
that's what you get
so don't try to turn her into a person she's not

and
there's no such thing as wishing upon a star
those are just bull-shit
lies
stupdi stuff

ever heard of a song named 'Boulevard of Broken Dreams'
i some how fancy that song right now
so emoitic

i need to right dose of the right medication
to get myself back into normal mode

gosh it's long since i've typed such a long post
feel relieved?
yes

actually
i don't know how to describe how i'm feeling now
i don't like to do things 'in the dark'
perfer openess
but somehow i don't do 'openess' as often as i should
i don't come clean to question like "do you have a bf" and stuff
i never ╳

so, is hiding things a good thing to do?
OBVIOUSLY no
so then, what the hell am i doing with my life

damn Christine you're such a dumb ass!
......
but then again
i wonder why i start calling myself names
this was suppose to be a 'speak your mind' post

ARGH!!

and
i think...
i have a dilemma

i prefer to hang out with boys rather than girls
or at least it was like that the last time i checked

yup
i hang with people of the opposite gender more
and if people didn't know better
they'll think Ai and Dy are guys too (sorry to say)

believe it or not
i take advices from male friends
girls too, but i can count the amount of girl whom i truly trust

maybe it's cuz i feel that girls ♀
are plain b!itches in some cases
very often they back stab behind each other's backs

but for guys ♂
they're totally different
they stick to their friends like super glue
on second thought
i change my comment
make that super super super glue
(well not all, at least 70% of them, i think)

so
i don't know what is there left to say

true friends are hard to find
in fact, they only come by once in a blue moon
chances are, like,
equvalent to the chance of teaching a cat how to bark
(well it's crazy, but not IMpossible, i guess...)

but!
even if the whole world turns their back on you
you can TOTALLY
ABSOLUTELY
100%
NO DOUBT

you
can
count
on
God

the miracle worker ^^
my place of shelter

haha~
ok i guess this is enough for today's express-so...
time to get a good night's sleep

hopefully 9th of December will be a great day
and FYI: i'm still wondering what to wear
yes i know it's only a day away~!
bullocks!~

ok
good night bloggie
i need to get some good sleep

Amen ♥

☞ sometimes i wonder how's it like to be an angel

2009-12-07T22:05:00.001+08:00

They say ther's such thing as getting addicted to Facebook.

Now i know why! O.O

Little -oo-me is currently hocked to Pet Ville!! =3

Introduced by my cousin sis~! xD

I JUST WANNA LIVE !!!

2009-12-07T18:51:00.012+08:00

What's up ya'll!!
I, miss CATBS, wanna get a LIFE during this hilday season but UNFORTUNATELY i can't.

Had a confirmation camp that was SUPPOSED to be scheduled on the 10th to 13th this month BUT due to some ignorant people! the camp was off!
And in relation to THAT i missed the Proficiency Course that was held in November cuz the exam for it so happens to be on the 13th December (the last day of my-camp-so-not -gonna-happen).
And because of that RUINED camp schedule the family outing had to be delayed and eventually CANCELED cuz during this time around all hotels everywhere are fully booked =.=
Next there just so many dozens of duties waiting to be taken but me! Tak tau apa hal! Is stucked at home like a lazy pig.
And finally there's this St John duty thing at Genting. I didn't sign up for it so i'm so gonna be bored to death and grow mushrooms while i'm at it.
But then Pik couldn't make it for the duty so i get to ganti her place but some people just won't want to let me have fun and plan to lock me up at home!!

WELL IT AIN'T GONNA HAPPEN PEOPLE!

I NEED

TO GET

A LIFE!!!

BULLOCKS!!

And i've been reading this book lately...

The cover looks amazing and, well, "innocient looking" i would say.
But i gotta tell ya novel written by American based authors has EVERYTHING from the sex and foul languages to the funniest jokes on earth.

Ok. Enough said.
Cao!

2009-11-29T17:52:00.002+08:00

Look throught my old stuff, since i'm free today...

Books, magazines, pics and stuff.

Then i came across my d-i-a-r-y...

Gosh,
full of sad =(
happy =D
hilarious XD
and even some unwanted memories ><

Read a few pages of it,
then, images of pass events came gushing into my mind.

I immediately close the book and placed in back into the closet.

I don't think i'll be reading it for awhile.

Maybe when i'm, lets say 50 years old?

When my memory will fail me

and i won't even remember where i stay

(IF i can live that long)